Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Tonka Trucks

Sometimes it’s the small things in life that can open up a fountain of tears. This morning we were getting things loaded in the van that we are selling or giving away to some friends in Brasov – the washer, dryer, dishwasher, some small appliances, Holly’s tricycle and outgrown clothes. When I walked outside, I saw sitting near the van, apparently waiting to be loaded, some little yellow trucks. Gabriel’s Tonka Trucks. “Are you giving away Gabe’s Tonka Trucks?” I asked John in a tone of voice that made it obvious that I did not like the idea. Gabe just looked at me and shrugged his shoulders and said, “I’m not going to play with them anymore.” That did it. The tears came, slowly at first because I really did not have time to cry. I still had to focus my attention elsewhere. Gabe, who never likes to see me upset, came to me later and told me that I could keep the trucks if I wanted to. “Yes, I know I can. But I can’t keep your childhood. That is forever gone and those trucks are just a representation of the little boy I raised.” It’s just stuff! That is my motto for the next few days. I am glad to be able to give the trucks to another little boy here in Romania. I have the memories to cherish in my heart.

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7 Comments:

Anonymous PlainJane said...

I've been going through a bit of that lately myself. We are not moving, but the gradual signs of my babies growing up cuts deep. I'm trying to hold on to every moment I can.

You might want to dbl. check with Gabe about getting rid of the Tonka trucks, my dh still has some trucks on his dresser and he wishes he had kept his GI Joes (instead of blowing them up). They would be worth something now.

Wishing you rest & peace amongest it all.
Love, Jane

February 28, 2007 7:16 AM  
Anonymous PASTICCIO! said...

Karen, Your post today really touched my heart -- oh my! Keeping you and your sweet family in thought and prayer at this challenging time.... Thanks for popping by PASTICCIO! And your kind comments. :)
Have a blessed day!

Becky

February 28, 2007 8:00 AM  
Blogger jewlsntexas said...

Oh boy - it is so hard to watch them grow up. I understand completely what you were feeling. You never know what will trigger it either. I see moms with two little girls like mine were - and I think - does she know that this is one of the best times of her life?
I am sorry you had an emotional day - you are loved!
And you know what else - while it is possible to feel all of that - it is still very possible to just love love love the awesome young adults they are becoming. How do you figure that is?

February 28, 2007 8:30 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I can't imagine how you all must be feeling, leaving what has become your home. I would suggest that you keep as many toys as you can. In the blink of an eye our children will have children of their own and it is so special to give our children some of our own toys. Plus they may never be able to take their children to Romania, but they will be able to show them the toys and tell them stories of playing with them in Romania and what it was like.

Just my 2 cents!

God bless,
Tammy

www.homeschoolblogger.com/hutcheson

February 28, 2007 12:37 PM  
Anonymous eeeemommy said...

Oh you sweet thing! I have tears welling up in my eyes for your sake, and mine. My little boy will soon be 10 and he's such a little man. It has gone by too fast! Everyone warned me that it would!
I say keep one or two if it's at all possible to squeeze them in somewhere. One day a grandson will be happy to visit Grandpa & Grandma's house and play with Daddy's (or Uncle's) trucks! You can't save everything, but you can always save the best. (Then again, I'm a pack rat so take my advice with a grain of salt.)

February 28, 2007 6:56 PM  
Blogger Chappyswife said...

Oh, that would do me in, too! It's a mom thing, I guess. My oldest is 14, & if I didn't have my little ones to focus on during instances like that, I'd be a blubbering mess. Well, the truth is I am anyway, but still...

March 3, 2007 12:34 PM  
Anonymous DanielleW said...

::sniff, sniff:: it really is the little things. (((hugs)))

March 5, 2007 12:46 PM  

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