A Place in My Heart
I just have three days left and right now I am too tired to be excited about it. I'm tired of kids who need lots of discipline and serious spiritual help - both of which I am unable to give them. But mainly I am tired of stupid (sorry, I'm too tired to think of a better adjective) decisions made by those in charge. Enough said. I'm also tired of being away from my family. I have missed being a stay at home mom in so many ways.
Friday is my last day and I will walk away from there and never miss that job. But the children, as horrid as they can be, have found a space in my heart forever.
Friday is my last day and I will walk away from there and never miss that job. But the children, as horrid as they can be, have found a space in my heart forever.
Labels: My Heart, Substitute Teaching, Tired
posted by KarenW at
3:08 PM
7 Comments:
Aw Karen -
I am sorry you are so tired and worn out. I am also sad that it wasn't a positive experience for you.
(((hugs))) from TX!
You never know what pieces of yourself that you leave with those kids will do. Glad you will get a rest and refreshment at home!
It's been 10 years, and I still hold the special-ed children I worked with in my heart. Wow, as I type this, I realize that they are now in their early twenties. I wonder what happened to them, especially the one angry little boy who shocked all of the teachers by hugging me and clinging to me on my last day...and now I'm going to go cry, and pray...
There is nothing like being away to make you appreciate your family even more.
Hang in there-- you are almost at the end! I think that is what would frustrate me the most about working in the school system-- bureaucracy, laziness, apathetic students and apathetic parents.
I'm sure your time with those students counted for much, Karen! It doesn't take a long time to positively impact someone's life.
Praying for strength to make it through the next 2 days. I am thinking of the difference you made in A's life by praying for his home situation.
Karen,
Funny how the Lord works. I hit the random blogger button on HSB...which I rarely ever do...and your old blog popped up. I have been unable to keep up with many blogs recently and am so glad He lead me to yours this morning. The last time I stopped by, you were just beginning your new position. Seems much has happened over the last few months. For the season you were in the classroom, the Lord used you to minister to His little children. Those seeds you planted will be carried with them for the rest of their lives. Others will come along and water them. What you were able to do was not in vain...God had a purpose.
May the Lord continue to minister to you over the coming Christmas season. Rest and enjoy being home again.
Hugs,
Angela
Just stopping by to leave a note of hello. Teaching connects us to "our kids" in such a unique way, doesn't it? I'm sure you were a positive influence there, especially with your prayers. I'm glad you'll be able to be home with your daughter again. Have a wonderful Christmas.
Sandy
homeschoolblogger.com/fallinglikerain
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